Spiritual Awakening

I am surrounded by malevolent forces and I always have been. It’s the same as in March but I didn’t learn my lesson. I knew then that it was only a matter of time before they attacked me but I am gullible and trusting and I let my guard down.

I understand now why some people raise their kids harshly as if treachery and danger lurk around every corner. Those are the wise people. It’s only surprising to me now that I did not recognize the enemy right before my eyes.

And I’m even cursed with a true blue stalker to boot who instead of asking for a handout decided to take. I have barely interacted with him by all accounts and that is good because he’s a sick and evil person. I’ve done no harm to these people. The bad energy circulating among them and that they direct at me on medium Reddit and elsewhere is completely toxic. To think I was so naive that I assumed spirituality equals good.

Yes there’s a toxic system at play here but it isn’t what you think. The world is ending and it’s not my fault or problem. I have to look out for myself. I am seriously considering suicide but I know that there will be no relief from that. It remains an option. Life has no meaning and it is full of suffering and misery. Trust no one.

I will likely go back on drugs and I see few reasons not to. Once my parents die if I’m still alive I will have no reason not to take my own life and I look forward to the day.

I could seek vengeance but it would only harm me. Their negative energy will have to consume itself.

Thank God for this spiritual awakening.